Growing up, I had a great passion for writing and reading. As a result of this, I decided to study English literature with a specialization in Global Literatures. As an English major I get to learn how to better communicate, and the history behind where the English language originated.
There’s something great that happens when reading. Reading inspires you to push your limits, and do things you’ve never imagined possible. If someone was to told me a year ago that I would be starting my own blog I would have thought that’s insane but here I am sitting on the reclined black leather couch in my living room writing an autobiography for my own blog.
Whenever I experienced trauma, I turned to writing to help cope and come to an understanding about what was happening in my life. Similarly, I wanted to take my writing about my own personal experiences to help people cope with their own traumatic experiences. When something hard happens, I think one of the most important things is knowing that you aren’t alone.
I was bullied from the age of 7, until the age of 18. Some days I didn’t even want to go to class in fear of being attacked.
At the age of 18, I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder. For a long time, I blamed myself for being unintelligent, unfocused, disorganized, and I finally knew why.
When I was 19, I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. It got so severe that I would have multiple panic attacks everyday. I wouldn’t be able to sleep, eat, go out, complete tasks because of how stressed I was with everything around me.
Speaking about my problems openly is something I’ve never done before, but feel it’s very important. I strongly believe there’s a stigma around mental illness, and struggling with mental health. I hope that by me speaking out about my personal experiences of mental illness that it can inspire others to know that dealing with mental health isn’t something to be ashamed of.
I want to be able to inspire others to keep going, and tell those who think bad times that never get better, tell them that it does get better. Furthermore, Beautiful Chaos is the beginning of me telling my story.